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Wajdy hates you all. In fact, I got this writing gig because I do. A few things that I've learned in my travels in this crazy little thing called life :

One ... You'll probably not go down in history , but you will eventually go down on a woman who's not of your pure choice, but of what your combined character, looks and money can get. Because otherwise you'll choose the first cleavage showing, ass jiggling whore you'll meet . Your dick does most of your thinking , and I'm not sure that it shouldn't . But what happens is you start your actions with your dick and finish them with your brain ,after you get off, it's just unfair to your non-hormonal half to endure your pathetic horny double's predicaments.

As crummy and randy as some of you are , you'll change into this ego maniac once a stupid bitch comes into a room and I mean total dick brain replacement , the whole referee stopping the match the assistant raising the flag , your dick high-five-ing your brain while you brain is going out ,substitution. Oh and most probably she won't sleep with you, you self loathing dick-head, you'll just let her know that you want to.

Symptoms : Increased Voice dB , perspiration , arrested sense of hearing other males, jittery movements, fever and an erection . You can spot a patient from a mile away. Some advanced cases will show symptoms of paralyzed tongue muscles and drooling but these cases only occur in closed-rooms companies where a case of a big audience and hence instant bad-image is a rare possibility.

Cure: go rub yourself against a tree , ejaculate you horny little fuck... Maybe you'll come back to your senses , try our new "Get off and Decide" new method of thinking. We , here at "Get a grip" foundation , help people develop a plan of how to think without their small dimple of a dick clouding their judgments, we give "put off 'till you get off" classes where the students learn how to put off decision making until they get off.

Seriously, have enough respect for yourself to maintain your "true" character disregarding to whoever is in the room. It's affecting the whole gender , I mean really , the things that guys write to the girls in facebook is humiliating and hopeless : " I like to be simply an obedient slave servant driver for free for a girl or a group..." a guy wrote to one of my friends . You stupid little horny rat , how pathetic can you get . Is there an image left to maintain ! Do a simple average operation and our whole gender will fail big time.

Get a life , a hobby , a career , a girlfriend , a dog that you won't fuck or even a couch and a Playboy subscription , just get it out of your system before you meet other people , and maybe , just maybe , your brain will do a lot more thinking.

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[Status] Not Edited Yet [/Status]
[Issue] 24 Sep 2007 [/Issue]

it's 5:00 AM

it's 4:30 AM
it's 5:00 AM
it's 5:05 AM
it's 5:06 AM
it's 5:07 AM

My whole day plays in front of me over and over and over , I've already done what I will do . In my head I control the time line , things are even more difficult when the time line is self controlled. I already solved the work problems that I needed to think about later today . I lived all the possible outputs , every possibility has been accounted for. Except for hormone serges , I'm ready and set.

it's 5:13 AM

If a human being's life was measured by his brain activity when reacting to events , then my real age would have been twice my biological counterpart. The events in my head are even more demanding , and they're as real as the most realistic of lucid dreams. I sometimes pre-live a very tough and tiresome day , and have it turn out to be as normal as they can get.

it's 5:15 AM

People are much more interesting in my head , I take their best and worst features and I oversize them. Their reactions are raw , surprising , and edgy. There are no middle grounds , it's a jungle in here. My brain's manifestations overshadow my real life to the point where it becomes dim.


it's 5:25 AM.....

A Wider Perspective

Take a camera (CAM1) and put it right over your head and you'll see only you , your problems seem massive and your ambitions seem crucial . Selfish is not the right word but it's the first that comes to mind. Outside this CAM everyone and everybody are only a projection on your judgment ruler , actions of masses don't even register. Outside that CAM everything feels irrelevant and strange. In that outside world people are grossly competitive for reasons which resemble your own but for some reason you can't seem to grasp theirs, in that outside world , women have the power to change the color of their hair, their eyes and their lips . People talk to each other through objects that transfer their words into the air. They feel that strange because you can catch only glimpses of them when they pass throw the distorted edges of your CAM's field of view. Your only purpose is to better yourself according to your own judgment.


CAM2 is over your close friends , your party , or even your country , call it the Communism Camera , or COM.CAM for short . COM.CAM will orient your actions in a way to achieve welfare for all those who are in the field of view , your actions need to help better the group and if that means bettering your self then you need to better yourself according to that group's standards. Your personal needs take the backseat and your individualism doesn't even matters.

Now take COM.CAM and throw it way up high (high-CAM), you can see the whole world now , EARTH , you can even see a small portion of the distorted out-of-focus moon. You can't see yourself , you see groups of people running around winning wars and settling near water sources , you see entire empires being built and destroyed , peoples actions don't seem to matter, in fact, they don't . Neither bettering yourself nor your group seems to make a difference in a wide enough perspective.

So I say stop trying to be perfect, fuck your standards , fuck everybody else's standards . Do what you want to do , stop being people's puppets or their clowns . Evolve , paint paintings , write novels , create something you can call your own , SURPRISE ME !

Rejection

It's a bit tricky when it comes to taking yourself as your own reference since you're constantly changing ; the only link between you and you previous self is your body cells, furthermore there is no physical link between you and your 7 years ago self, since all your cells would have changed , all what remains is the people you know that define who you are , oh yes and YOUR cumulative thoughts. It's even harder to make it who you are that makes the difference not who you know .

You have to know how to accept rejection and reject acceptance. Otherwise you'll step into somebody else's used shoes and live their already lived life. It's all about doing what you want , embrace rejection , it's a sign of making a difference , people will or won't like it but it's besides the point , people wouldn't want you to be better or even different .

People would like you to be just like them and will accept you , which can be either redundant or destructive , because you'll end up just like them , a dead nobody ... Take yourself as a reference and do what you want specially if you get rejected for it ...