It Hit Me.....

Finished rendering the last scene in "F.E" ... Then it hit me ... This is too satisfying to stop and too hard to continue ... I just signed in for a life of either a feeling of emptiness after not being able to achieve better things than I've already achieved , or of hardihood since continuing doing this kind of work is consuming and arduous.

Fueling "F.E" was the need to prove to myself that we can do this , I had to see something get out from the output end for a change , and it did, we did what we thought was much harder in the sense that we never did it and much easier in the sense of the small but lasting problems that faced the project.

Do I need to prove something to myself or to others so I can actually go all the way through ... or does it become easier ......
What I plan to do is make it as natural as it can be that this becomes a part of my life ...... I need this to be as normal as waking up ...... I can't go back to usual tasks and taking orders ........... This may sound big-headed but it's not ..... I need this to continue or I will loose interest in my life , because other than that or BECAUSE of that everything else became boring ....